You will never realize how much I love you

Even though I never met you

And I will never have the chance to tell you

 

I know that it hurts to be you, because it hurts to be me

As brothers our struggles are so intertwined without sharing a conversation

Never even crossing paths but walking up the same slippery slope

That never seems to end at the mountain top

 

The fact of the matter is, it is not fair

The cards we are dealt are far from a royal flush

In this game of spades you are not supposed to be born hating the black of your suit— 

I mean skin—

But it’s a learned action from the rest of the world

 

We are not supposed to be told that we are monkeys

So the concrete jungles we are housed in are a fitting place 

Actually exchange jungle with food desert 

Never having an introduction to nutrients

Because companies don’t invest here

And if you are what you eat what good can come from a toxic diet 

 

Brother, I understand

And you will never realize how much I love you

Even though I never met you

And I will never have the chance to tell you

 

I understand what it is like to be hopeless

No one ever actually cares to listen to your story, they treat you like an animal

And ironically pigs come round us up like cattle to be held in barbed fences

There is a reason they call it the trap house 

 

The closest field trips we took to mountain rocks was a crack house

Yes people make it from here and go on to do great things

But for every one success story that we love to boast about

There are a thousands of whispers—I mean whimpers—of crying souls that die in pain

 

Brother, I know that every path seems like a dead end

And the exit roads being traveled are like Lake Shore during rush hour

…Seemingly impossible to get through

So why even burn the gas to try

 

Brother, I understand

And you will never realize how much I love you

Even though I never met you

And I will never have the chance to tell you

 

I understand what it’s like to hurt and not know why

I understand what it’s like to have that hurt manifest itself into rage

I understand what it’s like to lose hope 

I understand that you cannot lose what you never had

I understand what it’s like when they tell you 

“You can be anything”

But deep down they don’t believe their own words

I understand what it is like to want more

Even when it’s worth less from depreciation 

And they tell us we are worthless from their 3 million dollar trust fund highchairs

 

I am telling you I understand 

…I Understand 

……I Understand!

 

So when you pulled that gun out to rob me for the same pennies we both struggle to get

What hurt was not the feeling of the bullet piercing my skin

What hurt was not hitting the cold concrete 

Watching my blood paint the ground like a canvas

 

What hurt the most is that you will never realize…

That brother, I love you…

And I understand

Even though I never met you

And I will never have the chance to tell you

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