Superman
I remember when I was first introduced to the Caped Crusader, well not exactly
I remember when I was first introduced to my version of the Caped Crusader
If fathers are every daughter’s first love
Is it fair to say that fathers are every son’s first Superhero?
Our Superman
I remember when I believed you were invincible
You may not have been able to lift a train or airplane
But you could easily raise me up in the air until I felt like I was flying
You may not have been able to leap a building in a single bound
But you stepped over obstacles that I viewed as mountains with ease
Plus you could see over the roof of the car
My Superman
When you weren’t Superman you were Clark Kent
In glasses heading to your normal office job, but I knew the truth
Business casual was only the shell casing
You were a business leader, cut hair, played ball, fixed cars, you name it
A jack of all trades. Funny how they say I am the same way now
I even wear glasses to work
Superman in Training
Plus, you were the fun parent. Mommy always seemed so frustrated and angry
She must not have known that if you seemingly ran away from a responsibility
It was to save the world in some other way
She just didn’t understand that you were a Man
THE Man, THE Superman
But the interesting thing about Superman is that on his native planet he was just normal
The interesting thing about Superheroes is that just like Santa, and the Easter Bunny, and the Tooth Fairy, you eventually learn that their powers are not real
Sometimes their whole being is not
The interesting thing about pedestals is that the taller you grow, the objects on them become less above you
And you are forced to look them in the eye
Our Superman
The more time I spend eye-level with you
The more your powers over my opinion of you seem to diminish
This is not to say that I do not appreciate the blessing of your presence
Endless support and efforts
I guess I just started to realize the limit of your strengths
When did Superman become so weak that he could not lift the veil of his ego?
Or is the weight of hypocrisy like the gravity on your home planet
Reducing your powers to bigotry
You sent me a text message recently about judgment, righteousness, and justice from Proverbs
You told me it is only the job of God to judge
So how is it that you have passed judgment on your own daughter and made the ruling that her life is not fit for your graces
Ryann is Gay, get over it, and it’s not a choice, but your neglect to love her wholeheartedly is
To me a righteous action would be too have a conversation to understand her
Not once in 30 years have you tried
Apparently acceptance and understanding are Superman’s actual Kryptonite
My only question is would you, the Caped Crusader, have joined the Crusades back in the day to murder her and consider it Justice
Our Superman
The sad thing is, I was beginning to feel in recent years that our relationship had truly improved
But in actuality, it’s only because you don’t ask me what motivates me internally
You sprinkle scriptures and hope for the best
And I’m not sure if you leave it alone because you know that I will not agree, or because you want to remain in an emotional fortress of heavy elements
I don’t think that’s what they meant about being a man of steel
My Superman
The one thing I do agree with is that you taught me about manhood
That true men possess the foresight to look ahead and prevent catastrophes
But it feels like Superman can see through walls but cannot look at his reflection in a mirror
Can’t you see that I don’t need Superman captain-save-a-soul
Maybe I just need Clark Kent to want to investigate and care about our story
While he’s at it, have him help me find the moment when I stopped believing
My Superman
I remember when I believed you were invincible
You may not have been able to lift a train but trained me to be a great man
You may not have been able to leap a building in a single bound
But could teach me to leap the hurdles of division and love my blood because they are my blood
On so many occasions you acted as the Man of Steel
The stronghold for our livelihood
But this is the time to be malleable
Because one day, I may have to be the next Caped Crusader
And who better to learn from than Superman
My Superman